~~ Psalm 30:11-12 (GNT) ~~ You have
changed my sadness into a joyful dance; You have taken away my sorrow and
surrounded me with joy. So I will not be
silent; I will sing praise to you. Lord, you are my God; I will give you thanks
forever.
by Carley Cooper
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I live alone and I woke up this morning with my Bipolar being in a bad place, with no one to turn to or comfort me. I spent some time crying feeling like there was no hope for me. This episode did have a trigger though, and there’s a long story behind that. The nutshell version is that a really big dream that I had crashed last night when I found out someone important is moving out of the country. It was someone that I had hoped to have a future with. I’ve had several big trauma’s this year, and it’s only half over yet. My emotional and mental strength had run out, and it hurt so bad that I was in physical pain as well.
My morning prayer
and devotional time refueled me enough that I spent my morning doing housework. Sometimes nothing works for a downward spiral
like good ol’ fashioned hard work. It’s
amazing how much you can find to clean, even in a small 500 sq. foot apartment,
when you need to!
Afterward, I
spent the early part of the afternoon doing my power walking in Barrie’s Heritage Park. Beeeeeeeautiful
spot, by the way! As I walked, I didn’t
listen to my regular walking workout routine on my MP3 player. I listened to worship music. About half of my music collection on my MP3
player is by my friend, Chris Blakley. He’s in town again this
weekend to preach and perform. I’m
looking forward to it. We never know for
sure when he’s going to make it here, and it’s always a great time filled with
the Holy Spirit when he is here.
Going and going sometimes, like the Energizer bunny, like I was today is another Bipolar
symptom. By the time I made it home, between
pushing my body and the blessing of music, I was feeling better. I was finally ready to collapse, so I wasn’t great,
but good just the same. I was glad that
this energy surge was short lived. Praise
God for that! Sometimes they can last
for days, with little or no sleep.
I sat down to my
computer, checked email, Facebook messages, and did a small project. Then this song came on my player. It’s called I’ll Take Jesus
by Jason Crabb. It’s a tune that I listen to all the
time. Quite often when I hear it I get
stuck on it. What I mean is that I can’t
help but play it over a few times before I let the player continue on to
others. I always feel the Holy Spirit so
strong during this song. Today was no
exception. I’ve had a few incidents when
I can feel God with me so strong that it’s almost tangible. It is such an incredible experience; and this
afternoon was like that. I found myself
putting the settings to continuously repeat that song, and it played for at
least a few hours. Before I knew
what hit me, I realized I was sitting in my living room alone with tears streaming
down my face, singing along with this song, and my hands raised to Jesus because
I was so filled with His love.
I just saw this
on a photo on my Facebook Newsfeed, “When
life knocks me down, Jesus picks me up.”
No matter how dark things seem He always brings me to the Light. Every time I hit rock bottom, He lifts me
up. He never misses an opportunity to
send me encouragement when I need it. God
has a great plan for my future. He spoke
loudly to me today through this melody, and I couldn’t help but to worship Him because
of it.
~~ Dear God ~~ I love You.
Thank You for always picking me up and loving me back. In Jesus name, AMEN.
Here’s the lyrics
to I’ll Take Jesus. Below is a video Jason Crabb performing it live on stage.
I’ll Take Jesus
by Jason Crabb
Verse I
As they gambled for the robe He wore,
they chose a worldly trail.
Not thinking about eternity
as the soldiers drove the nails.
Will we learn from what they've done
or make the same mistake?
Me or the world My child,
Which one will you take?
Chorus
I'll take Jesus, I'll take Jesus.
I've tried those earthly pleasures and they failed.
When you see the gates of Heaven,
you hear the Master say;
Me or the world My child,
Which one will you take?
Verse II
As the pages of my life have turned,
and time has rolled away,
you see, the greatest things that I have done
they're not gonna matter on that day.
All my earthly treasures
that I have laid away,
Listen, they're gonna be to me just a memory
and this you'll hear me say,
Chorus
I'll take Jesus, I'll take Jesus.
I've tried those earthly pleasures and they failed.
When you see the gates of Heaven,
and you hear the Master say;
Me or the world my child,
Which one will you take?
Me or the world my child,
Which one will you take?
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